It takes all sorts of people to make this world go around though. I think you just need to pull away from the computer for a while until you figure out what you wanna do. Through what you've told me here lately, your life is "confusing" and I honestly think that you just need to spend time figuring everything out...and the internet forums arent a good place to be when trying to do that, IMO. Just take a brake man, seriously...There's no need to be around when you dont feel like being civil with people. I know you catch crap just for being yourself and feel the need to come back with some pretty harsh remarks and that's what alot of people just try and do to you. Just pull away for a while and concentrate on your MMA training.